i am a chapter in your life but you are nothing to me, sadly.
i wish you were really nothing, then life wouldn't be so confusing and tiring.
all the fake cheerfulness.
all the constant irritation i get.
hated the time where i have to pause, to think carefully what i wanna say.
cos with any mistake, the misery comes back to me and i have to face it.
i brought these upon myself.
i initiated everything.
i deserved this.
but how i wish..
all the stupid mistakes can be erased.
incinerated to ashes.
replaced by a tick.
no longer would i take a wrong step.
no longer would there be the irritated girl.
i wont feel irritated cos i don't have the right to.
a friend would stay as a friend, and should not get involved in my whirlpool of emotions.
even if you brought upon all that mixed emotions