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Sunday, May 4, 2008

FRIDAY
went to downtown with mich. ate 5 subway cookies and one sandwich each. :(
then we talked instead of studied till 7plus. walked around downtown. many many memories. we saw the new Ferris wheel. although it is small but its very nice with all the bright and colourful lights surrounding it.
we ran away from the 2 dumb boys who keep following us. spoiler.
then mich came to my house and stayed. we watched drama all the way. and we slept at 3plus. i went to school around 7 and did spa. GP remedial was cancelled. Ate at swensens with jeff. kenny.sandy. then went to kenny's house.
after that i went out again.

I'm afraid of going deeper and deeper. i dun want to fall in and pull out in the end. this will do no good to anyone. especially you. what am i supposed to do? avoiding. running away from reality. facing it bravely. But what's there to face. the problem would end if i stopped thinking. how.

AND i dun understand why is it that a boy and a girl cannot be close to one another WITHOUT people gossiping or misunderstanding. isn't there such a word as FRIENDS in their dictionary? well. that word exists in mine. and i think what im suppose to do is to just ignore and block out things. but is that possible first.

and to fssf. sorry :(
i really didnt know. i wish that you will let out whatever that's hurting you. even if it does not hurt anymore. though i doubt so. i'm not in the position to ask you anything regarding that matter. so i guess what i should do is to just forget that i knew that 'thing'. but whatever is it, i will be there. wish you knew.

3:15 PM