Sunday, April 6, 2008
feeling weird now. abit nauseous. abit funny. very tired for no apparent reasons.
mumi talked to me just now. we always had a talk after a long while. and this time is about her and her work. made me feel very guilty about how much her income has to go to me my bro and my elder bro. our allowances and our bombastic handphone bills.
for that moment, i feel like i should really work hard so that mumi wun have to be so stress over her work. can only hear her scolding people idiot only when she is really pissed off.
but then my mood to work hard or rather my push to work hard like just isnt there.
definitely when there is exams, i will study. no matter how lazy i am i will still study eventually cos i hate the feeling of not trying to know everything you can cos somehow qustions asked will turn out to be those of which you chose to browse through.
sometimes i make fun of people who work hard and do their homework. purely for fun and teasing or something like that.
then i realise by doing their work on time they wud be worrying for the piling workload. and i think, i rather be in their shoes whr you do all the homework on time so that you can do them slowly and understand them rather than leaving it all till exams approches.
but i cant bring myself to do work all on time. for some subjects like econs, i try to do all essay outlines, etc so that mstan wud scold.. then for maths, miss padma too kind for the past months and i think i rarely even do her work. and hence the bad results. which i deserved it.
so i dun blame myself why i cant do well for certain things. i dun ask people y others can score better than me. cos even if i worked hard, people worked even harder.
however, even if your friend can get good grades even without working hard, could be that he or she is consistent in their work and thus may bot be able to see them studying, or not they are really smart and little time put aside for revision allows them to breeze thru those tests.
duno why, but i feel kinda irritated whenever people asks for results and blah.
and i feel weird that time when ms tan mentions my name. even if it can be for good.
ahhhh. every sunday will be the day to memorise econs essay? even thou i feel that it isnt much for use.. i still memorise( at this point of time, nothing is in my head yet) for the sake of memorising.
this post is boring. probably as boring like those textbooks and lecture notes cos there are only words and more words. somehow my post always ends up to talking about studying but it isnt my fav subject.
wondering why i slept so much today. am i really tired?
anyway, yesterday was service learning! at MINDS.
great job to justin for trying to make sure everything was alright and smelling like a pig after runnig around everywhere.haha( my first haha!) i say he does a great job cos he did propasals etc etc all by himself. still need to see some of our bored and etc facial expressions.
haha.. my station was music and i was allocated to the blue group, which is the higher function one! and there, the people all very participative, no problem in getting them to sing and dance. they really got hold of the games easily. much more manageble than children or even teenagers. lala.. i think i feel better now. :D
1000 word essay?
lala.. econs essay to memorise:(
lo and behold to michellleeeeeeeee
mood: ya la ya la
went to see class photos. and saw funny pics i nv see before.
