Sunday, December 30, 2007
sorry. maybe its our fault that we didnt try hard enough. just that it really didnt feel real to me.
keep thinking that actually deep down theres always US together. maybe thats only my thinking, the others dun feel the same way as i do. think i should just grow up and change my dumb way of thinking. dun understand how can it be so weird, how could u all feel so weird when i feel nothing at all. or am i just trying not to think at all??! i just thought it will all be ok.
and for the other side. do u all even care. are we being one sided and irriating. if you all dun even treat it well or bother i can just stop this whole sickening thing. dun even know whats going through my mind. i hate everything. dun want to do anything, everything anymore. i dun want to go to school. i dun want to wake up so early. know this is dumb but i hate taking that stupid bus wasting my life on it when it is already being wasted away so much already.
tired.
12:55 AM