Friday, December 28, 2007
the purpose for us to live is to die one day.
find it very saddening that one day my life will end just there.
i will leave everything i owe, every rubbish i kept, every memories i have, all the precious things in my room and all my friends and family.
what i have will no longer leave with me.
are they even mine in the first place since i cant bring them along with me.
but isnt it right, cause i came into the world with nothing, probably only with my mother's love and care and the umbillical cord or i duno how spell it.
i dont want that to happen. i dont want to leave this world.
i dont want all the things happening to stop right there.i want every monday to be followed by tuesday and so on..and on and on..
no matter how sad how boring how happy how bad life is..
but probably when i having a rough patch i will be thinking that i hope my life wont go on..
then i will just have to remind myself that i blogged about this post where i have myself wishing that life will go on...
thinking again..since life is so vulnerable..shouldn't all of us then treasure it more and then spent every single time of your life wisefully?so that we leave the world with no regrets?
i guess everyone of us hope that we can be one good person, showering love and concern to everone, listening to your mother's nagging and not arguing back and stuff..
but its like somehow yet unachievable cause i somehow forgot all about being good and loving and caring and continued my way wasting my time off..
its only time like now that i feel i should be good and all..
all those i will put in more efforts lalala in the end comes out to nothing.
contradicting that i used to feel that i dont wish to live til some old age.
some sort like dont want to live too long..cause life is challenging.
and cannot bring myself to believe that i am some old woman next time?
but i dont think i can accept if some fortune teller tells me that i am gona die at the age of 40 or sth?
so, let me live..i want to.
my life.
this is my life.
i chose the way i live, so i should live with no regrets.
should.
no questions?
should.
mich.
1:19 AM